Little Things

I'm sitting in the Library, talking with one of my closest guy friends. We have the type of friendship that blossomed from driving each other crazy. Freshman year, we hated each other. Sophomore year we began to get along. Junior year we became better friends. Now, we're pretty close.

We were just having a discussion about how the little decisions in life can change a lot. For example, had we hooked up a few years ago (before we were both involved with other people), both our respective relationships and our friendship would be totally different now. For one, who knows if we would even be involved in our current relationships. Even if we were, that would mean things hadn't worked out for the two of us. Therefore we probably wouldn't be sharing life secrets.

It's weird to realize that something like that can change. . . everything. I mean, if I hadn't met my boyfriend when I did my life would be so different. Obviously, I would be in a different (or no) relationship now. But other things would change, too. I would have had to find a prom date, instead of having an automatic one. I would have never met his family -- or their little princess, who I am going to someday steal (if her mom will let me. . .). I probably wouldn't have even considered the college I plan to attend, figuring it was too close to home. In other words, everything would be different.

The hardest part of all of this thinking (aside from the headache) is all of the "what-ifs" that I encounter. What if I chose a different college, or a different major? What if I had tried harder in my "easy" classes? What if I had put the time required into attempting to be popular? What if I stopped wondering about the past and tried to make choices today that I'll like tomorrow? Or better yet, what if I took a nice, long, nap and woke up with an empty mind? Great plan!