Poor, Poor Pitiful Me

It's like Murphy's Law: as soon as a girl becomes involved in a relationship, guys who would have never noticed her are suddenly attracted to her. It never fails. And it royally sucks. I have been with my boyfriend for four years now and we are engaged; sounds like a fairytale, right? Wrong!

See, things have suddenly gotten complicated. I'm not sure at all what I want anymore. Do I want to get married within the next year or two? Or should I wait? It's my first year of college; freedom kind of sounds like a nice option. . . but on the other hand, I really do love my fiance. To complicate matters further, the one guy on campus who I find attractive decided I seem like an interesting person!

Don't get me wrong; I love my boyfriend a lot. And I really can see myself spending the rest of my life with him. It's just that, well, I'm eighteen and female. I was raised to not need a man to make my life complete. And now I'm trying to make decisions based on what a man thinks would be good for us?! I'm so confused.

And what am I going to do about the "other guy"?! He has my number and I'm not doing anything until he calls me; that's just the way I work. For the record, I have been studiously trying to not let him know that I'm interested--he was supposed to be my "unattainable crush". Now he's accessible and I don't know what to do! If, however, I was in a relationship, I am willing to bet that he never would have noticed me.

Do relationships reverse the magnetic field surrounding a person? Because that's about the only explanation I can give for this bizarre phenomenon. My roommate looked at me as I explained my dilemma. She had only one question: "How come you get two guys and I can't even get one?"

My feelings on the situation? To quote Linda Ronstadt: "All these boys won't let me be / Poor, poor pitiful me."