Men Don't Change

I didn't even realize how long it had been since I last wrote until I signed in! This summer has been crazy. I spent the first few weeks at home because my dad broke his leg but now I'm back at school. I'm living with three of the best roommates in the world and working for the college. It's ridiculously fun; sobriety is rare.

My main contemplation this summer involves a conversation I had with a friend a few months ago. I asked him why I always find guys who are complete jackasses. He replied that the problem is that only jerks have the confidence to hit on girls. Nice guys know that good girls are always screwed over so they are afraid to ask girls out. This leaves girls in the awkward and confusing position of only being able to date guys who don't let us know they're interested and avoiding those who do. How does that even work?

So now I'm not even sure what to do about anything. I know that whatever I am doing now is wrong but don't know how to change it. All I know is that I am surrounded by assholes and finding a decent guy is like finding a needle in a haystack. Except harder.