Keep your drink, just give me the money

Well, it hasn't been as long as the break between my last two posts, but it seems like life just keeps getting weirder and weirder.

First off, most of my last post was about M. I'm pretty sure nothing's going to happen between us, despite the mutual attraction. He still hangs out with me and helped me move out of my dorm and into a house, but that's about it. I'm obviously frustrated but the situation is complicated by the fact that we now work together. Yeah. Strange. Also, my former roommate is spreading the rumor that I'm messing around with his brother. Basically, things are just becoming entirely too bizarre to even consider starting a relationship. It sucks, but I'll live.

Meanwhile, the intern at my station has decided it is necessary to make out with me and won't leave me alone. I first met him for about two minutes when I was filling in for the receptionist at the station. We were introduced, chatted about our majors, and then he left. I didn't really pay attention to him because he works mornings and I work nights. A week later, he showed up at a party I was at. He immediately put his arm around me and claimed me for the night. I let him keep his arm on my waist but kept refusing to kiss him because we work together. (At least I learned something from M.) Intern finally got mad that I wouldn't make out with him and left. He texted me a few days later -- it's a long story as to how he got my number -- to apologize for being an ass and tell me that he hopes I can make out without him without being drunk. (I had also told him I wasn't drunk enought to kiss him, lol.) The conversation culminated in Intern asking if I would watch a movie with him. So I have a movie date with him tomorrow night; he's coming over after I get off work (with M. -- awkward!).

I'm not entirely sure what to do with this situation. Both of my roommates adore Intern. My current closest guy friend hates him. As far as I'm concerned, he didn't make the best impression at the party and his late-night texts to tell me how beautiful I am and ask if he can "make a move and try to kiss you and stuff" during the movie aren't helping. I mean, firstly, any guy who doesn't have the confidence to just try has no business kissing me. Secondly, can't he at least pretend to care about more than just my body? So far, I've shot him down in everything except watching the movie. I made no promises regarding what will happen then; I told him I'll see how things go. And I will. And I'm not betting in his favor, but who knows? I haven't kissed anyone in so long . . .

One thing definitely working against him is that most girls are more likely to mess around with a guy when they're drunk. I am bitchier. So he's going to want me to have a few drinks to loosen me up, which will completely blow up in his face. Unless I trust the guy, which is quite rare, I will not let him near me. At least I'll have something to amuse me at work . . . I mean, how awkward is he trying to make this for himself?

The worst part of this whole thing is that I'm in a place now where I really want a relationship. I know it won't happen with M., the Intern is just dumb, and the only other guys I know are my close friends. There is one of them I could totally fall for, but I won't let myself. For one, he's too innocent; I would always feel like I was corrupting him. I'll be living with his sister next year. And he's just too sweet to have to deal with my issues. He deserves someone as untouched as he is. If only I could find a good guy who's not perfect but not an ass . . . until then, my current song is "U + Ur Hand" by Pink: "I'm not here for your entertainment / you don't really wanna mess with me tonight / just stop and take a second / I was fine before you walked into my life."