Closure
Well, it might finally be over for good. No calls, no text messages, no angry voicemails: nothing from my ex. As terrible as it sounds, I'm relieved. I mean, I still care for him as a friend but this last week has been hell.
I was up until 1 Thursday morning talking him out of suicide. I had to be up for work by 5, then spend the day with family. Friday was spent Christmas shopping (on my birthday; talk about unfair) so I didn't get his calls since my cell was on silent mode. So I had tons of voicemails and texts that went something like this: "Fine then, ignore me. I'll just leave you alone forever", "Or just don't talk to me", or (my personal favorite) "Maybe I'll be alive to talk to you later." Right. . .
But tonight pretty much fixed it. Out of nowhere I got a text message reading "F*** you". The next was going on about me talking behind his back -- weird, because I don't even know his friends! I tried to call him but he just texted me to not bother calling because he didn't want to talk or something like that so I left a message asking why I should answer every time he calls but he could ignore me. That got a response. We talked -- yelled-- for quite a while. I'm still not sure what I said or to whom. I do, however, know the following:
1. I have officially proved everyone right. Apparently it's a universal rule that the second a girl enters college, her high school boyfriend is history because she wants to make out with the entire campus. (Ignore the fact that I have made out with a grand total of 2 guys; I must be restraining myself well. . .)
2. I am a coldhearted bitch who uses guys and dumps them when I'm done. (Never mind that I was with one guy for 4 years and engaged. . .)
3. I only care about myself. (How does keeping him from killing himself figure into that?)
4. I am worse than a slut. (That one has me completely confused.)
5. I want a guy who treats me like crap. (Because I didn't appreciate it when I was respected.)
All in all, this has been a very informative night. So informative, in fact, that I think I'll just go ahead and let myself go. The mens' basketball team is around here somewhere. . . think I could get some action?
I was up until 1 Thursday morning talking him out of suicide. I had to be up for work by 5, then spend the day with family. Friday was spent Christmas shopping (on my birthday; talk about unfair) so I didn't get his calls since my cell was on silent mode. So I had tons of voicemails and texts that went something like this: "Fine then, ignore me. I'll just leave you alone forever", "Or just don't talk to me", or (my personal favorite) "Maybe I'll be alive to talk to you later." Right. . .
But tonight pretty much fixed it. Out of nowhere I got a text message reading "F*** you". The next was going on about me talking behind his back -- weird, because I don't even know his friends! I tried to call him but he just texted me to not bother calling because he didn't want to talk or something like that so I left a message asking why I should answer every time he calls but he could ignore me. That got a response. We talked -- yelled-- for quite a while. I'm still not sure what I said or to whom. I do, however, know the following:
1. I have officially proved everyone right. Apparently it's a universal rule that the second a girl enters college, her high school boyfriend is history because she wants to make out with the entire campus. (Ignore the fact that I have made out with a grand total of 2 guys; I must be restraining myself well. . .)
2. I am a coldhearted bitch who uses guys and dumps them when I'm done. (Never mind that I was with one guy for 4 years and engaged. . .)
3. I only care about myself. (How does keeping him from killing himself figure into that?)
4. I am worse than a slut. (That one has me completely confused.)
5. I want a guy who treats me like crap. (Because I didn't appreciate it when I was respected.)
All in all, this has been a very informative night. So informative, in fact, that I think I'll just go ahead and let myself go. The mens' basketball team is around here somewhere. . . think I could get some action?
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